What is it in life that makes us smile when we are feeling so low.
Weather its watching your favourite tv show like Glee, or a movie which makes you chuckle, or even your best friend giving you a hugg we each have our own ways to gain our emotions when it comes to smiling. Depression though is a different kettle of fish, you cant even watch tv or your favourite movie and when it comes to chatting to your best friend and getting a hugg you just want to shut the world out and pretend it will only get worse and there is no end in sight.
When I was going through Depression it was just like that shutting the whole world away, the concept of help didnt even enter my mind. There is lots of help out there Citizes Advice Bureau and the samaritans.
This was going back now 10 yrs and I can look back thinking if only I did this or that then my life would have been on a different path, I might have been pushed up the ladder at Alton Towers as I was gaining lots of respect from the other managers, but we can all look back at a certain point in our lives and say these things. I decided to not look back at what could have been and make the most of how my life is at the moment and I started to feel more positive, I am so greatful for working at Alton Towers for them years 2003 – 2007 and they will always be the best part of my working life and nothing will ever come close to that and I always feel happy looking back at them days without feeling depressed.
Still now in 2017 I struggle some days I tend not to look to far into the future as I get panic attacks and anxiety issues so I mainly look at the day to day but what has helped the most is Vlogging yep putting myself on YouTube for everyone to see is scary and still is but My confidence has grown 1000% in the past year I can face challenges and even though im 47 and not the best looking cookie in the jar lol I am who I am and proud of that, im a nice person, would never hurt anyone because it would upset me more that the person if I did, I was brought up to respect people no matter what, I am not perfect in any way shape or form If you have watched any of my vlogs then you will understand where Im coming from.
I cherish every moment I can film and put onto YouTube even though I do not get many people viewing my vlogs or subscribing its not the point of vlogging its something different and I love doing it, its a good way to express yourself, the true you, the reality of life, sharing what you can and showing you are only Human after all.
Have you evern chatted to someone famous and realise wow they are just normal people, when i was working at Alton Towers I met a few famous people and they were so down to earth just living there lives like anyone else, if they were to vlog there normal lives they they would not be so famous as you would see they are just like you or me, Media can pull the wool over people’s eyes and typecasting people. But at the end of the day they are actors and they have cameras pointing at them just like a vlogger but a vlogger does not have a hollywood script attached to them (well maybe some do).
I am writing this on the spur of the moment, did not plann this what do people say its come from the heart and when you get these moments you have to share because thats when people take notice and appreciate what you have written.
Thank you so much for reading this and please if you can check out my YouTube channel