Mental Health #GetTheInsideOut

So all this week I have been filming short clips for my Sunday Vlog regarding my Mental Health State and this week has been a test because its been a Rollercoaster of a week which has been along time since this has happened but I know its all work related.

Sunday Vlog Week 6 #GetTheInsideOut

So this started Tuesday 6th Feb 2018 was a bad day one of them days I could not face any members of the public but thanks to the job I had to but felt physically sick when I did its a hard thing to explain but most of you reading this will know what I mean, it also felt like my mind was trapped behind 4 walls and could not concentrate at all.

Wednesday 7th Feb was a bit better but it seems like the mornings are ok but the afternoon was really bad, I kept myself to myself while at work by dusting the bric a brac which kept me away from most of the customers but it was not easy at all, I approached the staff but it was hard to explain why I felt this way because there was thousands of things going on in my mind I could not concentrate on one fully, bit like the game frogger standing by a motorway and waiting for a gap so I could run across but to much traffic, thats not what happened but how my mind felt.

Thursday 8th Feb was allot better starting to get my humour back and lots of nice customers in the shop so slowly sliding out of the mind set.

Friday 9th Feb was just the same as yesterday but knowing the weekend was upon me I was a little bit happier.

(today) Saturday 10th Feb the last day before my 2 days off, my mind set was completely different I seemed to have found confidence in allot of things today feels like the road is clear for now and feels like a door has appeared in the 4 walls i mentioned earlier, so was easier today to work even though I faced an irritating work colleague but delt with it confidently.

So basically my vlog tomorrow is chatting a little about what I just typed but you can see it in me I struggled, its not easy filming on a bad day mental wise because you dont want to show that side of you but felt it very important and more people should film the days when they are feeling so down because it can help in the future, Say you film one bad day and one very good day and upload and share then the other days you feel bad then just watch your very good day and it could help you, it does help me, then the bad day one someone out there could stumble on it and they could realise they are not the only one out there which helps allot, the main thing that has helped me is seeing other people with the same problems and knowing and sticking together we cant beat it but we can support each other.

please comment me if you have the same issues or just need someone to chat to, I am here weather its on YouTube or here I want to help the best I can, I am not a qualified doctor or counsellor but I can be there for you to chat to.

I will add the link to the vlog when it goes online after 6pm 10th February 2018 Sunday.

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Where I am at in 2018

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Hey there better late than never lol I know I said I would be back 8th but things are happening and its all good, have made some new friends through YouTube and Twitter and my YouTube channel is slowly getting more subscribers so I’m very happy.
So whats been happening! Well been creating lots of vlogs after vlogging all of December I had to carry on for another week but now im winding down and only doing vlogs every Sunday which will give me time to film through the week and edit something good for a Sunday. I also have next week off January 14th to 23rd 2018 so I am intending to go to London again and maybe Brighton if I have the money at the end of the week lol who knows I could bump into Alfie or Zoella (Zalfie).
There is allot I can do in 9 days but mainly focusing on London and brighton I could also take a trip to Deal and sandwich to take some cool video as sandwich is a quaint town.
There are lots I would love to chat about but the most important is mental health yehh I know everywhere you look people are always moaning about It but my motivation is helping people because when I was younger no one was there for me to chat to about it so helping people is my passion. I am also going to do a series of vlogs based on positive which will reflect what I type on this blog.
Also I want to blog more than vlog so people who watch my vlogs can catch up on me through my blogs which gives them an opportunity to see more into my life as its easier to type feelings rather than film.
So hope you like this blog and if you do please follow for future blogs.
Hugggssss

And as I always say toodle pipps
“Toodle pipps
A British colloquialism used when saying goodbye that is preferable to “ta ta” or other more Americanised forms of farewell.”

Morning chat 21st Dec 2017

Morning wonderful people how are you all?

This morning in heading to ashford to work in the shop there for the day so I’m getting ready for the train trip. The news this morning on BBC was a bit to boring to chat about lol just brexit, mocha being sacked etc.

So what you all up to today it’s only 4 days till Christmas day wow can’t wait but it does not feel very Christmassey though maybe because I’m getting older lol

Planning on doing a vlog chatting about the youtuber Shane Dawson all good of course. I will film it later. I am managing to get through vlogmas again this year lucky only a few days to go then I will have new plans for my channel plus need to film a dpk show Christmas special to upload Christmas day.

Now on the train I’m looking forward to working in Ashford a few days before Christmas, I can do a bit more Christmas shopping while I’m there as well.

Well that’s it for this morning hope to catch you later for the evening blog.

As always thank you for reading this.

Why im not giving up on WordPress

I feel that I should give up on this blogging and stick to vlogging but something inside me says stick with it. I noticed in January I had my most views, that was when I was doing my weight loss blogs which I gave up on later in January so since then my viewing figures then started to slide.  This has incouraged me to try it again Now its June 2017 from July I will try the Weight Loss again and keep track once a week with news and info on how im doing and the ups and downs during the weight loss.

I cant give up on YouTube Vlogging because that has helped me so much build up my confidence and people skills, plus its made it easy for me to communicate with the customers more.

For the 12 people following my blogs I thank you sooooo much and I will try even better to bring you  more interesting blogs.

I also have started a kind of news Vlog where I research the strange news stories and give my views, Still have along way to go before I am successful at that but what I would like to do is also a WordPress Version when I give my views on each story in there separate vlogs.

so hope to have something up and running within the next few days on here…

Coming soon to my YouTube Channel

My Views on the Newscoming soon

Yes I want to give this a go, I have in recent Vlogs looked at the Bbc News page and read out what is on there and given my own views so thought I would give it, its own vlog. Yes I know its dangerous ground giving my own views but I will research what I can and cant say as I dont want to upset people lol.

I will give it a go and see what happens…

 

My Sunday extra Vlogs 26th March 2017

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Just a short compilation of chit chat from the week of Vlogging but I lost half my recordings due to a silly error on my half, so planning a new way of editing my Vlogs and making sure I dont loose any data, plus during the week when chatting to the camera I do tend to repeat myself allot which I found annoying especially when editing lol but its something I have learned from watching myself on film, There are a few quirky things I have noticed about myself when I talk that im trying to iron out lol so thank you Vlogging you have taught me a few things lol lol lol

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